Just A Beautiful Disaster

5 and 1/2 margaritas and half a large cup of wine later.

woo for a margarita party. boo for coming back to my room at 330 alone. gah the boy needs to come back from new jersey. i do have funfetti cupcakes and candy in my room though. i need to eat healthier. BAH i should not be typing things right now. i have a headache. interesting night. going to sleep now. miss the boy more than i should…gah what am i doing?

currently

sitting on my floor in a towel. just got out of the shower. here’s how my day went. the boy (i guess he’s the boy now haha) stayed over last night. i woke up at 915 to go to the public market but he decided he was too much of a lazy ass to go, so i went with my roommie and her boyfriend. despite it being cold (i’m a baby,  yes i know) it was lots of fun and i bought lots of stuff (as always). came back, the boy was still in my bed but at least awake. he left and i made food. then made a massive salad for my dinner tonight. attempted to get work done but mostly procrastinated (so tomorrow will suck). then shower. now i’m going to get ready. yas is going to come pick me up and we’re going to kelly & julie’s for massive amounts of food. salad, tortellini soup, squash lasagna, brownies, and whatever else they throw in at the last minute (they always do, i love them).  lots of fun and food there. then back here for who knows what? lily is supposed to stop by after her mixer and the boy will be here probably. i would not mind going and causing chaos somewhere tonight. we’ll see how the night goes.

ps: the “boy” is a long complicated story. apparently in my attempt to make it easy and not cause issues, i made it worse. so he’s now the boy, instead of just no label. fuck this college dating thing. way too complicated and obnoxious. i just want to have fun. at least we’ve got the fun part figured out.

viruses!

i had the flu. got over that the same day i got coxsackie virus. getting over that now. haven’t been to class or work since wednesday. should return tomorrow. fml. reading great gatsby and hamlet all day. doing laundry. i found something i can eat finally. ice cream. and fruit snacks. haha.

i'm still alive

i can’t remember the last time i’ve been on here. sorry. it’s been so chaotic.  i’m currently waiting in uhs waiting room for someone else, but i have an appointment at 430. i’ve been sick since wednesday night and every time i think i get better something else pops up or comes back. ugh, i just want to get better. i’m missing an exam today (gasp). but other than the recent illness, i am really loving life.  i have a new guy i’m kinda sorta seeing. we need to go on some dates and get to know each other first. we met each other both drunk off our asses at an underwear/sleepwear party. haha. we have only hung out one day where we weren’t either drunk, hungover, or sick.  but he’s still hanging out with me even though i’m sick, and he’s sticking around. i’m impressed. :-) he’s super awesome though and i can’t wait til i’m better and we can actually have fun and do normal, date things.  i turned in 2 papers last week, hopefully those are okay.  i’m missing an exam today but will probably get a make up exam on wednesday, hopefully not harder haha.  and i have a paper and an exam next week. ugh. i am also very hungry and can’t eat anything.  i missed my dance performances this weekend and am COMPLETELY bummed.  so basically after one really amazing weekend i had one really shitty one.  but i’ll try to start updating this on a semi-regular basis again and not sucking. i probably will also unfollow a lot of people so my dashboard isn’t a cluster fuck of things i really don’t care about.  i just don’t have as much time for tumblr as i did this summer. i have a life. haha. wow. shocker i know.

when everything is lonely i can be my own best friend.

fuckyeahconor:

I get a coffee and the paper; have my own conversations
With the sidewalk and the pigeons and my window reflection
The mask I polish in the evening, by the morning looks like shit.